You are my beautiful saviour.

requested by jingkang and jestyn.

1] At what age do you wish to marry?
Perhaps 25?

2] What i want the most now?
U-n-i-t-e everything.

3] Who is the person you trust the most?
Su da bian, sarah and charlene.

4] Do you think you have enough confidence?
Nope.

5] If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
I want to go back to my primary school times.

6] Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Yes.

7] What are you afraid to lose the most now?
Love and trust.

8] Do you believe in eternity love?
There's never a guarentee in love. Feelings do change.

9] If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
I've already met that someone i love. (:

10] List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Jingkang - Listening ear, happy-to-lucky, plump( good fortune)
Jestyn - Joker, Understanding, Caring.

11] What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
I hope he would be more understanding. And stop playing games.

12] What feeling do you hate the most?
Trying to be another person.

13] Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
I do.

14] Do you believe in God?
Not really.

15] What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Knowledge.

16] Do you find it a need for you to have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
I've already have a boyfriend.

17] At this point of time, would you rather stay in your comfort zone or try something new?
Comfort zone.

18] What kind of friend you hope to be in your friend's eyes?
Cheerful.

19] Where do you see yourself in 5 years time?
18 + 5 = 23. Prolly working?

20] The place u want to go the most with your love ones?
All around Europe and historical sites.

Instructions: Remove 1 question from above, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chatbox that he/she has been tagged.
Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

People who've been tagged:
1. Me
2. Me
3. Me
4. Me
5. Me
6. Me
7. Me
8. Me

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Friendship is hard to come. Especially those you would want to hold them closely to your heart forever. I'm utterly disappointed. I might not be your ideal friend and someone who understands you wholeheartedly. Tried, so hard to fit into your frame of style. But i failed terribly.

Secondary school i've tried to live up to your expectation, accomodate, and even try to please you at times or even vent on. Maybe you don't see or feel. I did. Its so stress to be your friend or even your best friend. I'd never see the day coming when i can actually talk to you stress-free and openly. I've always been living in the sense of pressure when you are around. I don't know how to bring a smile in your face or even tried not to make you dislike me. So stressful.

After we graduated, i always wanted to meet up. Having fun together. Having second thoughts, I'd think that what to say to you when i sees you. Think what to wear to prevent you from critisizing or even gave me a look. You are always controlling the situation. During secondary, you are so scary. When i heard your name, i felt so uneasy. Can you even put yourself in my shoes to know how was i feeling?

If there is a time machine, i wish everything could be restart again. How we combine us... I really wants to be your friend again. It hurts so much when i sees those photos taken together... So much. We've been through loads of shits together as a group. Does those memories mean something to you? Or even something you never regretted? Did you even acknowledge this friendship of ours?

I miss you. Can i give you tight hug?

DISAPPOINTED.STRESS.PRESSURED.
I don't know if you even dropby my blog and know what is happening in my life.
I don't know if you even care about what i wrote.
Lastly, i still treasure this friendship...

We know each other since we are 13 years old. In exact, i know Sarah for 4 years going 5. However, we became closer when she became my mistress and we tuitioned together in secondary 3. But we are not best friend in secondary 1 and 2, although we are in the same volleyball team, same level classroom, same express stream. Except we are not classmate.

Secondary 2, we fall in the same class - 2C. Although we are in the same class, we are not that close yet. She mixed with Shafiqah and i mixed with peifen. We mixed so differently, we dont open up to each other and she dont attend trainings regularly. I never ever think she will be my bestfriend.

Going secondary 3, our bond grown closer. We went battle field together. (Fighting for positions in Westzone and Nationals) We tuitioned together with Rachel, started to hang out, pon-ed class, sat behind the classroom and have fun with Aidil... Started our 'shit'. Only Sarah, Rachel and I knew what does 'shit' means. Secondary 4, we are even closer. We are like covalent bond. (If you know what does covalent means.) I miss those secondary school times having fun with our girls. Now, i doubt we can enjoy together like those innocent days...

I've seen Sarah grown seriously. From a plump little girl to a mature beautiful young lady. We are 18 this year. Means we are officially legal for anything. Our thinking changes as time passes, dressing sense... She changed me, not overall. She give me advices and opinions especially on relationship and some stuff. She is always the first to know everything. Hope our friendship lasts till eternity. I wants her to be my bridemaid and sees me to have a complete family. Like what we always talk bout it, we want to grow old together and bring along our kids during meet up. We want to be rich tai-tai too...

I miss her so much. She is away for camp till saturday. Our friendship will never be defeated easily.

STOP MY PLAYLIST IF YOU WANT TO LISTEN TO THIS WONDERFUL SONG.
Never let you go - Janice. Sarah's blog playlist.

The rain just never seems to bring
The joy I feel the same.
Everlasting pain of my loss remains.

My heart can’t seem to learn to part
The hold you left you mark.
All that I dreamed of now it seems so stark.

Though I told myself won’t hold my breath
a part of me was dying.
There is nothing left for me to do now.
But give in.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would sing to you and tell you I won’t
Live my life without you.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes.
And you know I’d never let you go.

The way you left me on the train.
I don’t know what to say.
I remember everything of that day

I can’t believe we’d never dance
I just need one more chance
To share the sunset our one last romance

Though I told myself won’t hold my breath
a part of me was dying.
There is nothing left for me to do now.
But give in.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would sing to you and tell you I won’t
Live my life without you.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes.
And you know I’d never let you go.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would sing to you and tell you I won’t
Live my life without you.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes.
And you know I’d never let you go.

Came across this when i was searching songs in imeem. It was a chain letter... It sounds kinda true uh? HAHA.

HOW GIRLS FLIRT:

1.She calls you by your full name not just a nick name.
2. She hits you softly on the arm and laughs when you say something funny.
3. She flips her hair when she's talking to you.
4. She touches your arm when she talks to you.
5. She says, "No, I'm not telling you who I like!" with a big smile on her face.
6. She asks you who you like or who you would go out with seemingly interested.
7. When you go to the movies with a bunch of your friends and she is almost always next to you.
8. She criticizes you on a girl you like.
9. You catch her staring at you.
10. She plays with your hair or tries to put make up on you.
11. Her friends outside of school and in school know about you, and says she talks about you a lot.
12. She knows your phone number and address. ( stalker much? )
13. She will try and talk, and spend time with you as much as possible.

HOW GUYS FLIRT:

1. He stares at you alot.
2. He hits you alot. (just play hitting )
3. He uses the first thing that pops into his head to start a converstaion with you
4. He yelled, "Hi!", to your mum that day she picked you up from school.
5. He blew off his buds to go see "Brown Sugar" with you cuz you couldn't get another girl pal to go and didn't want to go alone.
6. He tries to make you laugh anyway even if he gets hurt in the process.
7. His voice gets softer when ever you two talk.
8. You hung up on him. He called you back.
9. You were invited by him to a group outing.
10. He called you to talk about nothing at all.
11. He imitates your laugh. OK, you do laugh PRETTY LOUD. Which makes you laugh even harder...
12. He remembers little things you mention in casual conversation
13. He sometimes stares straight into your eyes.
14. He uses every possible way to touch you (your hair, face, thighs, KNEES,etc.)

): my baby doesn't flirt with me anymore. booo hoo. haha. lmao!

Anyways...

I want to watch Step Up 2!! Low low low... Their music really makes you dance! They are really hot! HOTTT!

Tanjong beach today! Sun was scorching and i have a very serious sunburn! Afternoon weather was great until late afternoon. When dark clouds were approaching and it rained. Waited and waited... We carry on with our semi-final and final in the rain. It was freezing cold. Need a warm hug from baby! But he wasn't there. ):

By the way, we won! Champion! Team AbcXyz. Funny name uh. Proudly present my team mates: Gilbert, Javier, Zhiyong, Weimin and ME! :D Our prizes were cash and ripples bag? Lol. Sponsored by Nus.

I neeeed a moisturiser! I don't want my face and arms to peel. My scalp are burning too. Helpppp me.

I love my dearest! <3

I went to the zoo today!
Weather was on our side (:
But i never see Ah Meng's memorial leh.
Finally i saw my Inuka again! Polar bear for your info.

lets the photos do the talking!

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Puzzle that baby and i completed within 4hours (:
500 pieces.

miss you...

I PASSED MY BASIC THEORY!!
oh yes...

note: i had lotsa of fun today! :D

Relationship.

had a chat about this topic.

Relationship isn't about 2 people falling in love and have sex and have a family after that.
Its all about learning, understanding, growing up, endurance and patience.
Learn and grow up together.. Learn about everything together, understand each other. Giving in in times and even endure. This is something very precious to us during this process. Never ending for talking on this topic...

I hope i learn more throughout the years with Dearest Mr Su. (:
Theres a lot more to learn! Patience and limits must be good. And more and more things i would discover with him. Although there are quarrels and disagreement, but still I love you Baby!! I miss you too. Kisses!

ps: im hungry. urgh.

im so pissed with myself.
i fucking lost my phone AGAIN.
now its in the toliet. last time was in the cab.
i hope that auntie or woman or uncivilised female who steal my phone get **** and say bye.
pardon me for saying these. because i get back to the toliet within 1min? and its gone. FCUK.

HAPPY 20TH DENNY TAN MING JUN!!

im like so crazy over him. lol. boyfriend is red! hahaha i shall post his photos for you guys next time. promised! haha.

this post is so random.

clenching very hard
deep down it was about to give up
hope there's sunshine after a huge rain storm
its really depressing at times
always seem to be repeating and repeating

tired.

is there a restart button in life?
would it be the same ending again?

Boo hoo :P Scanned blog entries, loads of stuffs running through my mind. I hate when my auntie visits me! Sighh. I having difficulties in sleeping nowadays. It like hard to get into a nice deep sleep. Random post.

Yeah, trainings for NYP gotta resume on tuesday officially. And there goes Volleysports' training. Totally have no confident whether i will give my best shot. The bonding and passion isn't burning in me anymore. Hope these can bring my passion back. Random post again. Somehow i love digging my past during my glorious day in my volleyball. Thats something to be proud of being a volleyballer in Shuqun Sec.

Ahhh. I need a makeover sarah. I need more moneyyyy! I want to do this i want to do that. I seem so depressed. I need a BIG warm hug.

Where is my boyfriend?! He is currently asleep. Zzzzzzzz.
Im soooo bored.

xoxo,
p/s: i love you

Hell loads of stuff to update for the past 1 week. Many many events! Lol. Been planning my days meaningfully and enjoying it. Especially meet ups with Bestie, Girlfriend Jestyn, Aidil and volleyball peeps. Rare meeting, because it been ages when i last saw them! Refering to Aidil and volleyball peeps. THUMBS UP! :D:D

24th Feb-Sunday
Chee weijie 21st birthday! All of baby's friends are turning 21 soon! Envious. I just entered the legal age which is 18. Anyway, we went up to Mount Faber to take cable car! Huiling his girlfriend paid for us. Baby was trembling. =x Afraid of heights. Went cabling twice, another time for me to enjoy the scenery! Breezy... If only everything was built up, it will be so per-fect. (: Dine at Island Cafe located inside TANGS. Food was awesome although the menu was quite limited. Prolly i would go there again!

25th Feb-Monday
Went dentist to cleanse my teeth. Evening was meet up with Jestyn! We catched Ps: I Love You. Movie was okay uh. Manage to hold my tears but it wasn't that teary. Haha. I think i heard from jestyn dont watch Romance with your boyfriend. Because you will tend to follow and demand it from your boyfriend. Seem true. Propaganda skills.

26th Feb-Tuesday
Popped popcorns at baby's place! And we slack throughout the whole day... Slacking and sleeping is his favourite past time.

27th Feb-Wednesday
Met up with Bestie. Bugis dayy. It was Hudada's birthday. We had loads of fun that day. Bonded and laughed. Fruitful meet up. We never fail to talk about guys, pouring our sorrows and did silly things together. My bestfriend(:

28th Feb-Thursday
T3 day! Ate popeye. Tour around T3. Cool. Very cool. Baby was acting like a tour guide bringing me around. I love you!

29th Feb-Friday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LIONEL LEE KOK LENG! Special meet up with Aidil my lovely classmate for 4 years during my seconday school. Haha. Chilled at coffee bean and we brought out all our past memories. Laughing at our stupidlity... Catching up was fun! After that we boarded bus 30 to boon lay interchange from Vivo. The bus trip was never-ending... It seem to go on and on. Because we want to save costs. Lol we are so broke. It was Lionel 5th birthday celebration and house warming. Sarah and I were the only girls, as usual.

1st Mar-Sat
Homed. SLACK and SLACK.

More exciting events coming upppp!! Coooolie!!