You are my beautiful saviour.

what goes around come around?

thrice.

you once said you wasnt a bf material to me
why are u so low self-esteem?
you shld be proud for being what u are
perhaps u are hinting me for other things

whenever i receive a 'beep' from my mobile
how i wish it was you
thrice,
it seem that u are avoiding me

is this a test for me?

i know u are feeling unwell
but can u hav some respond?
forever dumb
speechless

cant u say it in my face?
i knows its hard on u to forget someone whom u knows for ages
for the past two days i hav been trying trying so hard
it has always been a question mark
always a problem for me to solve
where u go?
uoyssimi

im gona 'tahan' till my last breath
i hope i do
it doesnt matter anymore if its one-sided
i know i hav tried my best

bet u cant rmb u once told me that
"if the guy is your type, must faster faster grab k? dont let him go."
sorry im not able to do that all by myself
maybe all this while its just a infactuation to u

lovin u is a bliss, forgettin u is a torture, missin u is a chores.

what a joyous i had today! =D hahahahaha. beautiful saturday. =) firstly, arina, ilyasa and me went to West Coast's mac and studied. i feel so 'man zu gan'. accomplish something today. haha. i studied permutation and combination, maybe some binary stuffs? heh. at least i studied something. the trip was not wasted. haha! i ate cheese burger happy meal! haha got a toy for my nephew, not me uh! arina arina.. please dont get so stress up okay? cheers! poly's life must enjoy! dont so stress. im worried for you. relax! lets do some shopping! =p. reached there bout 1plus. start studying until 6plus. arina went off earlier to meet her parents, so left ilyasa and me. haha. took 176 to Westmall! walking ard..in the end landed up in the library chatting. lol. my daddy ordered The New Paper for me! thanks! :D got to pull up my socks for english. nowadays ive been eating Macdonalds! gosh..im dieting supposely. hurr. guess what. i ate chicken foldover meal yesterday and today i ate cheese burger happy meal! ahhhh. i need to diet diet diet! =p

sigh. have the cravin' to eat at night. late at night. sigh. sorry for such a short entry. toodles guys! =]

where you go?

loves! :)

phweeeeet! im felt so relieved suddenly.

WEEEEEE! =DD

relieved. all thanks to you last night! u take care alrighty. =) no matter what happens, you know i will be there for youuu.

AHH fundemental networking is so tough! decimal..hexadecimal..binary! gosh they're drivin' me crazy! NUMBERS! hate dealing with numbers. today lesson is all the way until 6pm. havin principle of computing and manufactoring process. so much to cope. HELLOOOOO people. im participating for the upcoming beach competition! =] i know our chances of winning is low, but as long as we enjoy our fullest and have fun alrighty brocoooli? :)

byebye!

shower me with love,

soak me up with warmth.

LOVES;

i believe everything is fated.

i want my me & you.

loves;

guess what? this is my second post in a day.

MOODSWINGS;

initally i was super hyper in the morning. woke up at 6am, had lesson at 8am. everything was goin' fine. had lesson all the way till 12pm. hyper-ness started to died down when noon arrvies. unbearable heat, walking under the scorching sun to AngMoKio to have kfc! we decided to go all the way to amk because there is aint spaces in the canteen. flooded with people. mood started to get a bit affected.

after lunch, headed back to school's library. was perspiring over, the feeling suck. went to library to complete our innovation project's slides. i cant concentrate on it. sorry guys. couldn get my concentration on the project, minds were wandering outside while arrangin' songs inside my lappie. mood starts goin down the stairs. message received from ahem. uncertainly filled through my mind. questions with why why why how how how. i don't know what to do. paranoid. sigh. mood wasn't really in a good state. moodswings! hey people, if you're unpleasant with something, please don't show it to add on to other people's burden. think twice. put yourself in other people's shoe first. it don't feel good especially when you're in a foul mood. sorry. the feeling is so awful. i hate that feeling. urgh. supposely was to wait for ilyasa to come back from malay dance's trial. but they delayed everything. wth. end up, ilyasa was goin' for adventure club. there goes my partner on e way home. okay nevermind. small matter. everything was kinda cocked up by then. walking the smiliar path back to the mrt station, today was not a enjoyable trip. usually i enjoy mrt and bus ride alone. it was exceptionally different from those normal day, today's trip seem so long and boring. i was messaging all the way home with ahem. it was exhausing to act as if you're happy, but the actual fact that you're not. im unhappy. its hard to hide the fact that you're unhappy bout' something. guess he's feeling down, din want that to happen too. sorry sunny. i wish i have a machine that could turn back time. toodles :)

will it be just an infactuation?

where are you?
complication
who can be my guardian angel and bring me to a faraway fairyland without troubles and worries
i need you.
embracin' in your arms

receivin' your warnth and love
caught in a mist
need someone to guild me out through my darkest moments
occassionally browsin' through our memories
in the end its always a question mark
to me.
wheres my me & you?

training was cancelled. :( / :)

bordem suddenly strike me to the extreme. im at nyp's library bloggin' away, while waiting for ilyasa to end his trial for malay's dance. so yup.. had my lessons today, english was disaster, principles of computing was fun! learnt bout' c# and bout' some console thingy. kinda fun thou'. enjoying.. but aint sure they're keyed into my brain cells. right now im a havin' running nose. those feelings are incredibly "great".

shld i feel happy for the things that are arranged for me in life? sometimes i feel life is so unfair, unpredictable, uncontrollable. i know i shld feel satisfied. i don't wanna compare myself with those unfortunate ones. why am i treated like that. out of sudden, i've the urge to say i miss my seconday school mates. everyone knows everyone well. everyone has its own personality. i don't feel like growin up. well..i know its a immature question or an answer. detest responsibility. interaction with the world. movin' on to our next stage of life. sigh.

i misses you suddenly <3;>

siting by the window
lookin through outside
searchin for high and low
just to catch a glimpse of u

feelin' so insecured by ur love
ma feel so insecured
doubts;
the person who brings me hope and faith
lead me through my darkest period

ma dono why i praises u* so high up
always in confusion
questionin' am i doin the right thing
shld i shld i?

toodles!

Im flying... :))

neva expect in ma life that u* are actually so close to me
so near yet untouchable
im delighted
sense of your hair
your breathin' rate
moments were extraordinary

BOOO! im soooo happy! my lappie can access to wireless! coool yeah!

THANKS ILYASA! IM SOOOO THANKFUL. :DD
eh your favourite colour sia! haha upload our photos yeah!

paul frank paul frank paul frank! weee! bought one together with sarah at Pacific plaza. it was raining heavily, ran in the rain with sarah. haha our hairs were drenched when we reached Far East. such a short distance to Far East. can u imagine how big the rain is? lols. today accomplishments are bought one top and one belt. =D more shoppings!

man.. i haven done my revision for permutation yet. i dont wanna flunk my 1st quiz. :( need some motivation and pressure. sigh. ooh ya i knw a new friend! melvin lim wei jie! =p hahaha. sarah Republic's mate. lol.
im sooo happy with my life now! unexpected surprises for me on friday! im sooo shock when i receive your message from a faraway place. hahaha. =] hope to seeya soon!

im tired...
yawns...
idontknowwhetherishouldbehappywiththisending.
but i know i will be there for u my sun planet. :)

todayy was soooo tiring. :( we are late for lesson! haha. two days in row my lesson starts at 8am! aww i need some sleep! didnt manage to concentrate during communication skills. keep yawing and daydreaming throughout the 2hr and 20mins class. there're 3projects on my hand, and its only the 4th day in school. ho ho ho. BEST AH. innovation is about creativity bla bla bla. so tough. THINK THINK THINK. my brain cells are dying of exhausion. we EI0708 are going to invent something that the market dont sell. to improve people's life whatsoever.. haha. arina, siew hui and me form one group to complete the innovation project. haha we think of improving icecream scopper. haha. werid huh. it was supposed to be like that. we were thinking where to see people scoop icecream infront of us. HAA and we think of Ben & Jerry! guess what? we made a trip down to The Cathey and ate Ben & Jerry! haha. arina and me ordered mix & match. 3 scoops of icecream, waffle and free topping. this cost us $12.50 each. hot fudge was niceeee! sinful eh. :( fatterning! when i was at the cashier paying, there was this lil girl from st. margret primary school, she was admiring my ice cream! unfortunately, she spotted the end of my waffle was dripping with hot fudge. HAA this was the most shocking part. she used her BARE finger and clean away my dripping hot fudge and lick it inside her mouth. OH WTF. i dono how to react, but i just remained silence. her friend who was a caussian immediately asked her to go away. at least her friend has some moral. lol. anyway, she's just a lil girl. no grudges. =)

lookin' into your eyes,
memerised by u,
its disheartenin' when somethin' shldn be seen,
u made me go gagaga,
forbidden love.

yesterday was my first step toward my future. lol. okay yesterday was my first day in school. lecture all the way. boring.. today is slighty better. 2hrs of lecture then 50mins of tutorial. i loveee manufacturing process teacher! hahaha a funny teacher even though he's 58 coming to 59yr old. haha. tmr im getting my lappie! wooo! the journey to NYP from yio chu kang is "great" man. perspiring all the way. lecture hall majiam neva on aircon like that. so stuffy! combined with 6classes of students grabbing for oxygen inside the lecture threatre. haha =]. im looking forward to school! my classmates rocks! sexy class! class monitor Lionel bought the lecture notes for us! how niceee! thanks! :D got a total of 5 binded notes! so heavy la. carrying it around in school and all the way back home. can train my hand muscles uh. ;p i forget to bring my calculator! how forgetful. already noted down in my handbook but i din check it. HAA. computering math is a pain in the arse. but i will try to love it =). motivation motivation! lecture was funnn today! had 15mins break than leave 45mins earlier! hahaha. everybodies love it. =) currently ive been spending time inside the lecture threatre scanning for handsome hunks. sadly there's none. NONE okay. my class got the most hunks! bleah haha. =P

canteen's food seem nice..but whenever i want to quene for food. i dont feel like ordering already. DIET time. whahahahah. yesh! finally tomorrow SQS training! old girls. haha. i miss you girls! miss laughing with charlene and wanxiang in court. and piak-ing wanxiang's palm when she cant spike well. AND doing silly action with rachel, sarah and everyone! like putting the ball in between your legs and swing your both legs up and catch the ball! haha i cant do it. lol. i hope tomorrow i wont look like an idiot carrying bag, notes and my lap top box on my body. hahahaha.. is there any gentleman that can help me carry to school for my training? (= heheheh. CIAO!

kept missing u in my mind,
the sun represents u,
u burn my heart and soul.

lalalalala~ :)

RING RINGGGGGG~ web-caming with my darling earlier. (= haha. supposely today by 830am i should be outta of bed. need to go temple to pray to repay the god. blabla.. after that went OG, did nothing but just pure shopping for Charleston's stuff! pissed. i want my powerpuff girls cushions! :( all sold out already. cost 6bucks for each cushion la! damn cheap. hahahahaha. not forgetting tmr school reopen! =D time flies..after PSLE posted to shuqun. thought it was end of my life. but its a new challenges. joined volleyball which i never regret joining. struggling both studies and sports. still remember those days we had to be excused from class for West Zone and Nationals competition. those glory days, sweats, tears, joys. so memorable. talking bout studies now. eh i think im a 60% volleyballer and 40% student in shuqun. devoted most of my time to trainings. =p

shuqun secondary is a remarkable school. =]

tomorrow its a new beginning of my life. Nanyang Poly is awaiting. a new environment. totally different study environment as compared to secondary. no teacher's nagging, no uniforms, no spot check. got to have discipline now. =) wooo. actions speak louder than words. hahahahahahahahahahaa.. sarah went for her Rupblic Poly's camp. knew quite a number of people! haha melvinnnnnnn i want.. lmao. IRMAN is sooo devoted to sarah, and vice versa. IRMAN saw ya name? better be thankful. :p

what's my future like in the near future? after 3years im graduating. 17..18..19? i will be sweet 19. coming out to work or continue my studies? 10years down the road, probably i will be married or be a bachelorette. haa. who knows? =)

i wish someone could bring me away
to a faraway fairytale land.

One more day guys! School reopen! Weeee! :D

I loveeee green! Hahahaa. Im dieting now, and i've the feeling to eat right now! In the middle of the night. :) Its 1250AM. AND my stomach is asking my for more foods.. Aww those temptation at home. CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT! No foods for me now. Im FATTT! FAT. Need to slim down to look nice. (= Hah. Im excited bout school reopen! Love bus ride and mrt ride alone. =)

Hmm i think i can list out some of my classmates' names. Arina, Siewhui, Lynden, Jiajia, Fatin, Siti, Syriah and not forgetting Zu Er! =] Here goes the guys.. Ilyasa, Haikal, Khairul, Shujian, Lionel, Alvin, Hafiz, Kim Teck, Han Wei, Johnny, Kai xiang and Ahirul. Thats my sexyyyy class! -EI0708-

Blabla.. Dont know why am i writting all these. Perhaps its time for bedddd! My bed is calling me. ;p Byeeee! Nights. Yawns. :)

First of all, a big thanks to denise lee! Haha wrinks*

Oh ya! Sent all my jeans for alternation! =D Collecting it on Wed. Now is a huge headache, got to think what to wear when school reopen. Shit. Skirts and Dresses? Oh my god.. Monday EI0708 is meeting at 1130 at yio chu kang mrt control. Haha class eating together! Wooo and oh ya, one girl named Zu Er is joining our class. Now there're 8 girls in the class. Hahahahaa! Watch out boys..lol.

1 litre of tears is damn nice la! Really can fill one litre of tears. Lol. Charlene hurry put in more episodes into the thumbdrive! I cant wait for 5,6,7,8,9,10 and 11! Haha. Weeeee! I need some tanning. Im getting fairer and fairer. Cant stand my white-nesss. Haa.

life's so unpredictable.
i've found u.
so near yet so far.
perhaps we should carry on as it is.

BOO! Amazingly, ive the urge to create a blog. Hohoho. Feel that life's so wonderful. Must write it down as memories! =)

Today is Friday the 13th, Huili's bdae yea. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D Time passes really fast. Still reminiscence the last day of Os. Science's mcq, practically did not study at all. Haha. 5months had passed. Monday i'm going to school already! Weee super excited! Entering a different atmosphere. A new enviroment. New friends! =] I've got sooo much to write!
Went for my orientation already, know a lot of cool peeps. SEXY EI0708, Sarnie and Firdaus our OGL! Hahaha. My timetable is out! Monday gona report school at 1pm. (= Yeah lappie lappie lappie! I'm sooo going to miss my clique! :( Sarah Sim... I miss you my mistress! Charlene, Rachel, Nicole, Daphne and mainisah buang too! Everyone's going seperate way, but i will never forget that Volleyball bond us together. Its getting emo now. ;p Haa. I miss training, i miss teacher's nagging, i miss pon-ing class, i miss my canteen's food! OMG i miss everything! =D During my vacation, got to work in adidas and i'm so glad that i'm working with a bunch of super nice colleagues la! What a colourful life. Heh ;p.

My sister is giving birth in 19 Aug. Oh ya, its a BOY! A BOY. I wanted a girl actually..but its ok! I'll still love him to bits. Buy him lotsa toys but mayb not as much as Charleston. HAA. Charleston can pass his toy to his lil brother already! Haha save money eh. =x Hmm.. Got to think of name for this unborn baby boy :) Loves!