Friendship is hard to come. Especially those you would want to hold them closely to your heart forever. I'm utterly disappointed. I might not be your ideal friend and someone who understands you wholeheartedly. Tried, so hard to fit into your frame of style. But i failed terribly.
Secondary school i've tried to live up to your expectation, accomodate, and even try to please you at times or even vent on. Maybe you don't see or feel. I did. Its so stress to be your friend or even your best friend. I'd never see the day coming when i can actually talk to you stress-free and openly. I've always been living in the sense of pressure when you are around. I don't know how to bring a smile in your face or even tried not to make you dislike me. So stressful.
After we graduated, i always wanted to meet up. Having fun together. Having second thoughts, I'd think that what to say to you when i sees you. Think what to wear to prevent you from critisizing or even gave me a look. You are always controlling the situation. During secondary, you are so scary. When i heard your name, i felt so uneasy. Can you even put yourself in my shoes to know how was i feeling?
If there is a time machine, i wish everything could be restart again. How we combine us... I really wants to be your friend again. It hurts so much when i sees those photos taken together... So much. We've been through loads of shits together as a group. Does those memories mean something to you? Or even something you never regretted? Did you even acknowledge this friendship of ours?
I miss you. Can i give you tight hug?
DISAPPOINTED.STRESS.PRESSURED.
I don't know if you even dropby my blog and know what is happening in my life.
I don't know if you even care about what i wrote.
Lastly, i still treasure this friendship...