
9.45am to 10am.
In my whole entire life of that moment, i felt like a loser. I cant bring myself to walk into the examination room. I feel like chicken out and leave. Texting and calling people to calm my nerves. I dont appreciate the grand piano sitting right infront of me. I didnt make full use of that grand piano to play my pieces well. Time waits no one.
I let peoples down. I cant think of any reasons to bring myself to face the examiner. He is a Sir. My heart was bumping more oxygen into my brain, each time when i pant.
No longer pioritize that grades are important to me anymore. I want to enjoy music not pressuring myself to learn music. Music is peaceful. Its the most wonderful thing in the world when you can play the song you love to your loved ones.
Definitely, i would still continue to take exam. Its a challenge. Today is a lesson for me not being serious. Next i would focus on my theory. Aim: Grade 5.
P/S: I dislike the feeling of chickening out!
Nicole sweetie sent me mail. 2 choices in life.
Now i will choose to learn from my mistakes and never let it repeat itself.
Not by running away from reality. (: